Didn't achieve what you want?

These days, I have been feeling that maybe I am not doing enough. Maybe I should do more. Even after 2 years of trying to take Codru forward I am not seeing any significant results.

“So, what should I do?”

“Maybe I should just quit than trying unnecessarily,” this thought has been popping up again and again in my mind.

As I have mentioned before, I possess a planner where I keep track of my day and all my tasks, it is there I came across “6 months review & celebration.” So, after September I came to the end of 6 months, and this is when I saw an opportunity to sit and review my past 6 months. I sat down to write all my achievements of these past few months, even if they were small. It came out to be a long list.

I realized that achievements can be big or small, even if I failed in many things, still the effort I have put was worth celebrating like completing a task which I have been procrastinating for so long? Or started taking care of my health? Not eating junk food too often? These might seem small but even the change I feel from these little things are worth considering as an achievement. And if I think about big achievements like finally after 2 years, I was able to open my first small office? It was a huge achievement for me.

Also, I could understand that even if I didn’t achieve anything it doesn’t mean I should neglect my efforts like I was once thinking of organizing an event in Codru Education but didn’t know how to reach my audience properly. I planned everything but nothing happened in it, but it doesn’t mean the efforts I put into organizing it for the first time weren’t worth celebrating. It was totally worth it. Yes, I failed but I learned a lot in the process, and I can always keep doing things again and again, trying again and again. Your every effort counts and is worth celebrating.

This made me see that we often keep going about our day, every day without stopping and taking time to analyze what we have achieved so far. Also, when we see others doing better than us, we end up comparing ourselves and forget our own achievements.

Just because someone didn’t pat our back or didn’t say, “you did great” doesn’t mean that it wasn’t an achievement worth counting. We have only seen that an achievement should be big to deserve a celebration but that is not true. We only become happy if we win otherwise end up feeling sad when the outcome isn’t what we want. We neglect and belittle the amount of effort we have put into doing it, only because we didn’t win or didn’t achieve something great.

Reviewing these past 6 months made me understand that I am giving my 100%, doesn’t matter if I achieved something huge or not. Moreover, it is the reason I am able to live peacefully and rest because I am doing what I can. It made me see the efforts that I have been putting in. And through this only I was able to see that I have been learning and improving. Yes, it is slow and almost invisible, but it means I am trying.

When I am trying only then I am able to see if it’s working out or not. And if I put no effort, then there will be no result or no progress at all. If I quit today then maybe the regret that I could’ve tried more, should’ve tried more will keep eating me for the rest of my life but if I keep trying then maybe one day all of this might end up working exactly the way I want it to.

This is why I should focus on my efforts and that if I am putting my 100% or not rather than what I have been achieving because that’s where most of the answer lie.

So, with this blog I have my answer. Do you have yours? Let me know in the comments.